Dreaming of Lost Highway | Little White Lies

In Heaven Everything Is Fine

Dream­ing of Lost Highway

09 Feb 2025

Illustration depicting two male faces, one in cool blue tones and the other in warm red tones, with expressive features and dramatic shading.
Illustration depicting two male faces, one in cool blue tones and the other in warm red tones, with expressive features and dramatic shading.
Sophie Monks Kauf­man recalls a strange vision in the night­time and the haunt­ing nature of David Lynch’s 1997 neo-noir.

I like to remem­ber things my own way,” says sax­o­phon­ist Fred under ques­tion­ing from the police. They have come to his LA home to inves­ti­gate who is deliv­er­ing creepy sur­veil­lance VHS tapes. Fred is osten­si­bly the vic­tim here, but some­thing about him courts their sus­pi­cion. My own way to remem­ber Lost High­way – over the decade since I first saw it – fore­ground­ed Bill Pull­man as Fred with his lantern jaw and scep­ti­cal expres­sions, a sooth­ing and sol­id pres­ence in the realm of the uncanny.

I had for­got­ten that Lost High­way was so dark. I had for­got­ten about Patri­cia Arquette, more sex slave than femme fatale, mov­ing naked through an infi­nite night bound to gang­ster Mr Eddy (a Frank Booth type) and his pornog­ra­ph­er asso­ciates. The cameo by and met­al sound­track fea­tur­ing Mar­i­lyn Man­son (since accused of the most sadis­tic sex­u­al vio­lence) amps up the claus­tro­pho­bic sense that those flash­ing yel­low lines mark a high­way to hell.

Hell was the last thing on my mind the day after David Lynch died when I expe­ri­enced some­thing as close to pure vibrant con­scious­ness as ever before. Sit­ting on an over­land train (the Suf­fragette Line to Bark­ing River­side) my mind – pre­vi­ous­ly in knots about a rela­tion­ship over which I had lost con­trol – sud­den­ly loos­ened to grasp that every­one else on my car­riage – the lady read­ing, the man bent over his phone – was expe­ri­enc­ing or had expe­ri­enced some ver­sion of what­ev­er was hap­pen­ing inside of me. My wretched self-absorp­tion was replaced by a sense of belonging.

This taste of the uni­fied field that David Lynch preached as part of a tran­scen­den­tal med­i­ta­tion prac­tice had caused me to for­get that his work also con­tains an impen­e­tra­ble black­ness. Lat­er that night Lost High­way entered my soft, trust­ing brain like an assas­sin. After­wards my sleep was taint­ed and awful. I woke up ter­ri­fied that I no longer had access to a peace­ful uncon­scious. Of my dreams, I could recall only a beau­ti­ful woman whose cal­cu­lat­ing roman­tic deci­sions made us want to destroy her. There was a bowl of cran­ber­ries – so acrid as to be repulsive.

Cran­ber­ry red pales against the wet ruby of lip­stick and head wounds. Fred and his siren wife Renee (Arquette) attend a par­ty host­ed by a man who will lat­er bleed out on his own glass table. Fred has long since watched Renee through a deper­son­alised gaze. Soon he will be arrest­ed for her mur­der, time will start loop­ing and iden­ti­ties will start split­ting apart from themselves.

A sign of things to come occurs dur­ing the most famous­ly unset­tling moment in all of Lynch’s cin­e­ma. It is a sig­nal from the body and felt in the body that the laws of physics no longer apply, much less the laws of decen­cy, kind­ness or love. Fred is approached by a Mys­tery Man and it all goes very cold as Lynch’s favourite drone sound (appar­ent­ly mod­elled on B52 bombers) over­pow­ers the par­ty music. I play the dev­il, I think,” actor Robert Blake told a talk-show host. The dev­il is in kabu­ki make-up: a white pow­dered face, red lips curved in a cru­el smile, side-part­ed black hair and pointy ears. David Lynch found the ears mag­i­cal: That’s love­ly, you won’t have to act at all.

That’s fuck­ing crazy man,” is Fred’s response when the Mys­tery Man says he’s at his house right now. Bill Pull­man told an inter­view­er that this is one of his favourite lines of dia­logue. Of course. It’s a nor­mal response to bat­shit creepi­ness. His look of HEH? is what I remem­ber so well from a decade ago. Why did my mem­o­ry hold onto this vibe as rep­re­sen­ta­tive of a film full of the kind of quick­sand despair that can ruin your mind? It is both a bind and a bless­ing to remem­ber things your own way. Maybe some scenes are sup­posed to be for­got­ten so that we can return to our every­day life absolved of what we saw, recall­ing it only in the odd shud­der that makes us grate­ful to be here and not on the lost highway.

To com­mem­o­rate the life and cre­ative lega­cy of the peer­less film­mak­er David Lynch, Lit­tle White Lies has brought togeth­er writ­ers and artists who loved him to cre­ate In Heav­en Every­thing Is Fine‘: a series cel­e­brat­ing his work. We asked par­tic­i­pants to respond to a Lynch project how­ev­er they saw fit – the results were haunt­ing, pro­found, and illuminating. 

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